But I cannot stop looking up pregnancy.
Twin pregnancy.
Twin Births.
Twin Nursing.
Twin Blogs.
…sigh.
I am telling myself that I am trying to calm my fears about the possibility of twins. I’m telling myself that I am thinking positive and preparing for what IS GOING to happen. I am telling myself I needn’t worry how I’ll feel if this doesn’t work this time because it IS GOING to work. I am trying not to think about what happened last time after our egg retrieval. I am trying to think about it ALL working. I’m trying to think about this miracle happening for us and this 29 month journey through heartbreak and infertility will be over soon because I will finally be pregnant.
Happy.
Healthy.
Pregnant for the long haul.
Beautiful, happy, healthy baby(ies) growing in my womb.
I think about all the people I know who just had to go off the pill and then try a couple times (and a handful only had to wait one or two months) and they were pregnant like that
How does that feel?
How does it feel to just decide to have a baby, to have a beautiful miracle, and it just
I have to believe that this will be our turn. This will be the time when we will get our miracle.
Please, God.
Please.
I cometely relate to this. I thought if be one of those people and it just never happened. Sometimes we have to work a bit harder to get to the end result and when we do (which I dearly hope you do) it will make it all the more precious. x
ReplyDeleteYes this whole IF journey is so hard but in really honestly believe that this is going to work and all this is going to pay off! Thank you so much for your comment and kind words! xo
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